aiz~

suddenly,
i realize s0mething,
i m0re like t0 hang up with my sec0ndary friend,
with0ut any reas0n,
just the feel when hang up with c0llege friend is abit unc0mf0rtable f0r me,
i d0nt understand why i'll feel s0,
maybe because of,
we are fr0m different place,
we are gr0w up in different envir0nment,
we are t0tally different,
c0llege life suddenly s0 ann0ying f0r me,
i feel like i cant crasis with them,
is suffer f0r me,
sh0uld i change my lifestyle?

是我不懂得容忍,
或是我不懂得与人相处的方式,
我没有义务那么做,
却不得不照做,
究竟是什么程序出了问题,
到底我想表达些什么,
连我都搞不清楚了..

我可以很好相处,
相反的,
我可以不屑一切,
人对我好,
我对人好,
就只是那么简单的循环方式,
但我对你好,
不代表你可以欺人太甚,
不代表你可以爬到我头上来,
我不吭一声,
不是我脾气好,
而是对我来说,
你根本连废物都不如..

还在为assignment而忙碌,
我快喘不过气了,
为什么连一个能和我分担的人都没有,
我知道不该埋怨,
我知道只能承受,
但为什么要是我,
我开始厌倦这一切..

next week need g0 buy f0r formal shirt,
aiz,
need waste $$ again..

i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!