s0 c0mplicateD!!!i l0ve my family s0 much^^

Finally i finish my HE assignment,
aiz,
feel m00dy a~

T0day g0 ts,
but i feel wanna cry,
dun0 bc0z 0f wat,
juz suddenly tears wanna dr0p 0ut,
wat happen t0 me,
i feel s0 tired 0n evrything,
arh!!!!!!!!!
din buy even 1 thing,
maybe we are n0t same,
what i want,
started 0ut 0f my c0ntr0l,
i feel like want t0 sh0ut 0ut,
help me plz,
tears d0nt drop d0wn,
my w0rld sh0uldn't have any tears m0re,
pei,
be t0ugh~

M00dy,
why i feel s0 unc0mf0rt t0day,
n0 reas0n,
just because suddenly i feel t0 shut up my m0uth,
i feel t0 bec0me stranger,
i feel t0 be al0ne,
my m00d may change s0 quickly,
me is like that..

I feel easy t0 angry t0day,
why?
i dun understand,
isit any abn0rmal thing happen t0 me,
i dun think so,
maybe is juz bc0z suddenly i feel tat i cnt suit everything tat ar0und me,
leave me al0ne~

CHERRY,
miss u arh,
wan g0 sh0pping and yamcha with y0u a,
y0u're d 0ne who can really understand what i want,
when y0u call me,
i really feel t0uch,
still remind me t0 takcare 0f my b0dy,
bc0z 0f H1N1,
d0nt w0rry,
i will takecare myself,
y0u t00,
l0ve y0u my bestie,
mmuacksS~
cherry,
i agree what y0u say t0 me,
he is really a bitch,
i will supp0rt y0u f0rever!!!!

p.s: bull shit guy please leave the w0rld
d0nt pollute the envir0nment!!!!!!

我在笑,
因为我想掩饰一切,
我的心在哭,
因为我开始遗忘了我是谁,
我开始遗忘了自己要的是什么,
我迷失了~

就算我家庭不是很富裕,
但至少是很温暖的,
至少是快乐的,
我很爱我的家庭,
因为我有很爱我的爸爸和妈妈,
我也有很疼我的哥哥,
还有我很疼的妹妹,
很可爱的狗狗,
我觉得现在的我很幸福,
是真的!!!

aiz~

suddenly,
i realize s0mething,
i m0re like t0 hang up with my sec0ndary friend,
with0ut any reas0n,
just the feel when hang up with c0llege friend is abit unc0mf0rtable f0r me,
i d0nt understand why i'll feel s0,
maybe because of,
we are fr0m different place,
we are gr0w up in different envir0nment,
we are t0tally different,
c0llege life suddenly s0 ann0ying f0r me,
i feel like i cant crasis with them,
is suffer f0r me,
sh0uld i change my lifestyle?

是我不懂得容忍,
或是我不懂得与人相处的方式,
我没有义务那么做,
却不得不照做,
究竟是什么程序出了问题,
到底我想表达些什么,
连我都搞不清楚了..

我可以很好相处,
相反的,
我可以不屑一切,
人对我好,
我对人好,
就只是那么简单的循环方式,
但我对你好,
不代表你可以欺人太甚,
不代表你可以爬到我头上来,
我不吭一声,
不是我脾气好,
而是对我来说,
你根本连废物都不如..

还在为assignment而忙碌,
我快喘不过气了,
为什么连一个能和我分担的人都没有,
我知道不该埋怨,
我知道只能承受,
但为什么要是我,
我开始厌倦这一切..

next week need g0 buy f0r formal shirt,
aiz,
need waste $$ again..

i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!

c0llege life start driving me crazy,
everyday assignment,
i g0tta bang my head,
wh0 can rescue me,
i cant uph0ld it anym0re,
c0unselling,
Hubungan Etnik,
Information Technology,
why s0 many things need t0 d0,
luckily my c0llege life is quite interesting,
friend is really imp0rtant element f0r me,
with0ut friend,
i cant even sustain th0se stress and tiredness until n0w,
n0w i'm in sleepy situati0n,
i feel t0 cl0se my eye and just lay 0n bed,
but insomnia is rushing 0n me this few day,
what happen t0 me,
damn~

why this w0rld have guy that s0 bitch,
hurt me deeply bef0re,
and n0w when hurt by 0ther girl c0me and c0mplain 0n me,
querim0ny 0n me,
what the hell,
i'm n0t c0ld bl00ded pers0n,
i have feeling as well,
please d0nt interupt my life anym0re,
i hate him,
s0 just leave me as far as y0u can,
i want 0ver start my life,
and f0rget all th0se f0retime that have him,
because 0f that guy,
i already l0st many things!!!

PLEASE DISSAPEAR FROM MY LIFE FROM NOW ONWARDS!!!!!!

YOU'RE NOT WELCOME TO GET INTO MY LIFE ANYMORE,
EVENTHOUGH JUST A SECOND,

NO,

GET OUT OF MY WORLD~~~~~~

C0unselling isit suitable f0r me,
but i kn0w n0 matter h0w hard is it,
i must sustain it,
because this is my 0wn future and als0 my 0wn ch0ice~

c0llege life~

sl0wly c0mf0rt 0n c0llege life,
d0n't kn0w what t0 say,
rushing f0r c0unselling and Hubungan Etnik assignment,
g0tta bang my head 0n the wall l0r,
but is quite happy when in c0llege,
friends is imp0rtant f0r me~

having lunch at TBR with alm0st 10 pe0ple,
is quite enj0yable f0r me,
thanks f0r nathan carsberg,
haha,
drink beer at aftern00n is quite weird,
h0pe we can c0ntinue hang on t0gether like usual,
college friend is really g00d~

慢慢适应学院的生活了,
和我同科系的人都蛮热情的,
是不错的朋友,
希望尽快赶完我的assignment,
不想再拖下去了,
我很喜欢现在的朋友~

c0llege life is quite j0yful f0r me n0w~

t0day c0unseling class start at 10:30am,
actually i'm quite c0nfused that did i really suitable t0 study this c0urse,
be a c0unsell0r 0r pshyc0l0gist need t0 kn0w well that what's my strengths and weaknesses,
but i d0nt really kn0w that what's my strengths,
finish my class at 12pm,
afterthat need t0 rush to an0ther l0cation to attend for IT class,
0mg,
the class is 2h0ur lecture class,
such a b0ring class,
i felt asleep,
luckily 2h0ur is passing s0 fast,
b0ring time is reach,
break f0r 3 h0ur while waiting f0r next class t0 start,
at the very start i d0n't kn0w h0w sh0uld i spend that 3 h0ur,
but finally i hang up with my c0llege friend,
they is s0 funny and friendly,
actually t0day is the first time i chat with them,
haha,
they are nice guy,
afterthat when t0 canteen with them,
but m0st of them d0n't really prefer t0 having lunch at there,
lastly we decide t0 g0 genting klang,
but 6 pers0n is n0t en0ugh place t0 stuck in a car,
s0 we take bus t0 g0 there,
all the pr0cess just let it be,
the imp0rtant is,
thanks guy t0 let me hang up with y0u since i'm just the 0nly girl am0ng them,
haha,
is a g00d and enj0yable day f0r me~

c0llege friend is s0 funny,
i think i will started t0 c0mf0rt myself with c0llege life~

Jas0n,krueze,h0n kit,"itchy",and tan,
y0u all are really nice and funny guy,
nice t0 meet y0u all^^

feeling 0n this m0ment..

t0day went 0ut with my jimui--yann,cherry,ev0n

actually i'm in tired c0nditi0n,

at first i reject their date with the reas0n thats i'm s0 tired,

but lastly i decided t0 hang up with them,

maybe this is the lifestyle that i feel enj0yable,

hang up with my jimui and chit chatting,

is a g00d way to release all the stress thats i facing,

alth0ugh is tired but i satisfy 0n it~

c0llege life is s0 embarrased f0r me,

stay in a strange place,

face those strange pe0ple and als0 the strange environment,

i still cant c0mf0rt myself on it,

i prefer sec0ndary sch00l life rather than c0llge life,

is so satirize,

maybe sh0uld said that,

sec0ndary sch00l life 0r c0llege life is actually the same,

SUFFER,

the main p0int is,

as l0ng as b0th 0f it related with study,

then is SUFFER f0r me,

i'm n0t a girl that like t0 study,

i'm n0t a clever 0r intelligent person,

actually i'm just a pers0n with0ut idea..

c0llege life is quite l0nely f0r me,

n0t s0,

s0metimes i feel that is this a right decisi0n f0r me,

0r i'm n0t suitable t0 inv0lved myself in this c0urse,

c0unselling,

what's that,

maybe m0st 0f the pe0ple will think that c0unsell0r is just need t0 sit there,

0pen the m0uth and having conversati0n or evaluati0n with the client,

this is my first impressi0n 0n c0unsell0r,

but when i started c0me int0 c0ntact with it,

is n0t that simple that i thaught bef0re,

is a very c0mplicated c0urse,

just like human behavi0ur is very c0mplex,

haiz,

h0pe that i can affr0nt all the difficult t0ughly and easily~

cherry is g0ing f0r ns next two weeks later,

3 m0nth she need t0 stay at sarawak,

h0pe things will c0me s0ftly and all right,

in my heart,

she is a very t0ugh and independent girl,

i w0uld like t0 wish her all the best~